Sharing our experience of losing our daughter has been incredibly difficult, as it feels like reliving the nightmare. Despite the difficulty, we believe it's essential to share our story to help others dealing with the loss of a baby.

 

I found out 1 month before my 40th birthday that I was expecting my first baby, and what a miracle that was. I had previously had a conversation with God, telling him that I knew He hadn't blessed me with a child, and I was okay with that. I had accepted it, feeling a bit sad about it, but understanding that it was something that might not happen, especially since I was about to turn 40. I told God that I was okay with being a dog mom. 

 

Then on July 5, 2022, for obvious reasons I decided to take a pregnancy test my body was going through some changes and I was trying to figure out what was going on I just thought because I had recently lost 50 lbs and I was embarking on a weight loss journey that my body was changing. Some inside me that day told me to take a pregnancy test and kind of brushed it off a few times and finally gave in and bought one my thought it was going to be negative anyway but came home and sure enough it was positive even before I could set it down. Shock hit my body and I couldn’t believe it! I had my first appointment on June 30th to confirm and everything looked good. From the moment I knew I was pregnant I just knew it was going to be a girl and that her name was going to be Isabella. I always loved that name and I always loved the meaning of that name. I had a healthy pregnancy and it was a good pregnancy except for the occasional morning sickness and knowing what to eat and not to eat or I should say what Isabella liked and not liked. She did not like cinnamon. I know that for sure. 

 

January 19, 2023, was my last appointment and Isabella looked good she was healthy. They did weekly ultrasounds just to keep an eye on her because of my age. My favorite part of being pregnant was going to see her and hearing her heartbeat. 

 

January 20, 23 I woke up to go to the bathroom at 12:15 am, and on my way to the bathroom, my water broke.

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to be continued........